Damaged Barbie All of my life i've been that toy no one wanted. Been that defective frisbee or broken race car tucked away on the shelf. Everyone seeks perfection, but I don't fit that category. I'm damaged barbie, not pretty enough, not perfect enough. No one wants damaged toys, they aren't as good. Why waste time on something imperfect? Only perfection will do in this world. But me, i'm just damaged barbie, the one nobody wants.
Life in Memories I remember a time, the time of Children, when I was too young to hurt. When I'd spend endless hours in a field of lilies, lying on my back watching the clouds take shape and unfold into a panorama of white joy. Now all I have are those memories, for the time of children is gone forever departed. My heart has stopped beating; it has begun to turn black, dying inside me. I see things reminiscing of my childhood, When I searched for the elusive Amaranth, and played in the field of lilies. Then a shred of the joy I once felt fills me, only for a second, then dies.
Lighthouse I am a lost ship traveling on a dark and dangerous seas. Storm after storm thrashes against me, but I continue my journey. The waters try their best to capsize me, keep me from making it to safety. But through these rough and murky waters I push, using every strength in me to make it, becasue past these means seas is you. My light house, my light in dark waters. You lead me to safe harbors, and protect me against the vicious storms. I am grateful for your safety and your love, because without you I am lost.
One Wish If I had one wish, it would be to see you again, to have your smiling face brighten my day. I would wish for a brush of your hand upon my cheek, and your arms around me. I would wish to hear your laughter echo throughout the room, and your whisper in my ear. I would wish that your scent would stay on my pillow, and cling to the blankets. I would wish to taste your skin, and have it linger on my lips. If I had one wish, It would be for you to be near me, to have you with me once again.
Saftey Net My life is a circus, and in it I walk the highwire. High above the crowd, who wants nothing but for me to fall. They yell trying to break my consentration, because they don't want me to make it to the other side. I'm not certain that I can walk this rope that's so high. But I know I don't walk it alone, because you are there to catch me. You are my saftey net, the one that catches me when I fall and the one who urges me to get back up and try again. The one who believes that I can do it, and keeps me from hitting the ground when I'm falling. You are the one thing that keeps me from hitting the ground and that keeps me safe and sound.
Sunlight and Shadows I sit in this room and talk to the walls, my voice the only sound as it reverberates back to my ears. I'm utterly alone in this room; my only friends are the shadows, but they only come round once a day. So most of the time I sit here and stare at the floor, and talk to the walls, The only ones who listen, the only ones who care.
The Crush I see you from across the room, Wishing you'd see me. Hoping you don't know, How much I want you to love me. Yearning to feel your hand caress my pain, And the silkiness of your lips against me. Still I sit here, knowing I never will.
My Darkness I sit here surrounded in my darkness, feeling my emotions plummet in a downward spiral The coldness surrounds my heart, as the feelingless knife brushes my skin. Why should I live if there is nothing to live for? The pain is hot, and almost urgent. The red hurt and betrayal of myself seeps through the holes, as the room spins uncontrolablly, and the life slowly slips away and it all goes black A neverending darkness
You My heart has never truly beat before you, My lips never really kissed before you, My life never lived before you. You bring things into my life I've never felt. Love, guilt, heartbreak, and pain. There are so many good things about you, and yet so many bad. I don't know whether to hate you, or love you more than I already do. All I know is I need you to survive, Because I've never really breathed before you, and without you I can't breathe at all
Almost I almost forgot why I hated people. Almost forgot why I isolate myself from the world. But then today, I remembered why I hide myself. Hide yourself and you can't be hurt. I almost thought everything would be alright. Almost belived for once i'd be happy. But today I realized that was a silly dream. A silly dream for a stupid girl. I almost thought you loved me, almost believed you cared. But today I knew it was true. Today I found out, that i'm almost always wrong.
Shattered This is my, all torn and tattered. That's my heart in a million pieces, shattered. Once again i've fallen on the floor, wishing that I could feel no more. I curl up in a little ball so tight, wanting no more to see the light. Hoping that it will all go black, because I know I can never go back. Back to the happy girl I used to be, no that won't ever be me. But through this pain I bear and grin, making it to the next day, much to my chagrin. Maybe one day this pain will fade away, but it just gets worse everyday. I've disappeared, i'm no longer there. And still I sit here and wonder, does anyone care? Care about the pain I feel inside, Care that the happiness I once felt has died? All alone in my tiny little room, encircled in darkness and gloom. I hope this pain will disappear, then I will once again get to see everything I hold dear
Drops of Madness I sit here, and listen to the water drip. The sound is maddening, especially in my madness. It echoes throughout the room, and hits my ears. I'm already insane, this is just making it worse. It would be so easy to just get up and turn it off. But I can't move, can't get out of bed. So I'll just lay here, as the drops slowly wash away my sanity.
Remembrance of My Death Around, all around, the mourners gather. My dread grows as the Dark One's touch falls against my heart. It slays me, and darkly my life's blood drips to the cold, uncaring tombstones. In agony I call your name while the Reaper takes my hand. Now alone, my cry of mercy falls upon uncaring eyes. This is my Hell
Melancholy Shattered soul Broken dreams Vanishing hope Destroyed life Never ending grief Everlasting pain Welcome to my Hell
No language has ever been written No words ever spoken No parts ever acted Could ever describe the way I feel. I am convinced that no one person has ever felt, Or could ever fathom the love that wells deep inside of me. Only he could understand the love that radiates from within my soul Only he can comprehend the complexity that is me. Only he has the key to my heart It is only he that I will love and cherish for all of my days.
Dear Mom You brought me into this world, and sometimes I wish you hadn't. I wish so badly, that you would have had that abortion you wish you had. I would rather be dead, than be with you. This house is not a home, It's a battlefield, It's a war I can't win. No matter how hard I try, No matter what I do, Nothing is good enough. Instead of love and support, There are hurtful remarks and bodily harm. You don't care, you hate me, Those words from your own mouth. Well I hate you too, So when I say goodbye. it's for good. Because you do me no good, only bad.
This House is Not a Home What makes a home? Love, Comfort and Support. A family who cares, That doesn't keep track of wrongs. This house is not a home, There is no love, support or comfort. Only yelling, hurting, and crying. No one cares about each other, only themselves Wrongs are listed in the back of the mind, all good forgotten. I have no home, just a place to lay my head. A place to lock myself away, to run and hide. Hide from the hate, run from the hurt. I long for a place to call home.
Facade My life as you see it is fake, I'm not a happy person. The smiles and laughter, the joy, the love. All of it is fake, all of it a mask. A boundary to hide behind so no one sees what's really there. So you can't see the sad little girl with a broken heart. To hide the pain and the tears that go with being me. Ther fear of being forever alone. The craziness inside my mind. No one sees the true me, because they don't want to. The life I live is a facade, the one I show to hide myself from you.
My sweet prince, take me away from here. Run with me to a place where we can be free. Come for me, rescue me from my nightmare. My knight in shining armor, ride to me on your white horse. Unshackle these chains that hold me down. I need you to save me, for I cannot save myself. Your love will set me free So love me, be my salvation. Unbind me from this place, and I will be yours forever.
this is my newest one....it doesn't have a title.... My emotions are twisted and warped like the colors of a kaleidoscope. I am torn inside, a wound that will never heal Your voice rips through my heart like glass upon bare feet The pain is paralyzing, I cannot move The questions run through my mind like mascara upon teary eyelashes. Why did it have to end this way? I wish I could will my heart to stop beating, my mind to stop thinking, my body to stop wanting. Nothing I can do will change this pain. Alone I must suffer it, like Jesus carrying his cross. It is my burden to bear, and mine alone.
I want you out of my head, I want you out of my heart I don't want to remember you I don't want to crave for your touch. I wish i'd never met you I wish i'd never cared I wish i'd never loved you. I don't want to cry for you anymore. but on the other hand I want you to miss me to be thinking of me and wondering if you were wrong. I want you to say that you didn't mean what you said Most of all I want you back but then again I don't want you at all
