Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora Yes, this is Wf and the RR, and there's nothing wrong about posting that stuff here... ...but can someone explain why on Earth anyone would want to? That holds more morbid fascination for me than the posts themselves.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora I do some crazy things when provoked, like make fun of the size of my own penis.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora So is locustinferno trying to exaggerate his asshattery so he can say it was all a game later? Lame.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora Was wondering how long it would take you to comment. Now explain why on Earth I would need to claim it was all a game later. Am I going to try and forge some friendship with her, or even try to get along and need an out so that I can excuse myself from my actions? Homey don't play that way toots, once again you figured me wrong.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora Remember what I said way back when, about honesty being the best policy? If you had told me that, or even made that the content of your cold and uninformative email, I and guarentee that this whole thing wouldn't have been half the shitfest it turned out to be. Why? Because I can empathize. Here's something you didn't know about me, either: I was in love with my friend Ryan, I've mentioned him to you, for years. For four years, we acted like the happiest newly wed couple on earth whenever we were around each other. We had an incredible amount in common, and we readily accepted the things we didn't have in common. Our relationship didn't involve anything sexual, but it's safe to say we were 'physical' in the literal sense: When we went places we held hands, when he came over (he lived about half an hour away) he would sleep in my bed with me, and we would snuggle like there was no tomorrow. Everytime we saw each other or parted ways, we told each other we loved each other...and we meant it. Over time I realized just how much I really did love him. I would have done anything for him. I would have taken a bullet for him. He introduced me to his friend Meg. She seemed really sweet and we became friends right away. Meg was in a super-shitty relationship with an older guy, who dumped her after using her. She was heartbroken, and I consoled her, told her it would be nice if we could clone a guy like Ryan, who I knew she adored, a couple times and have him for a boyfriend. Since we can't clone him, I think she decided then that she wanted the real thing. After her break up, she began spending a lot more time with him. After Ryan broke up with his girlfriend (who he admitted was a very bad mistake), he and Meg started dating. He wasn't allowed to go anywhere without her. Literally. She didn't want him spending time with me anymore. When I came over to visit, she ALWAYS would be there, and if Ryan and I wanted to go somewhere, she would hop in my car with us and then not stop speaking to him and holding his attention for the entire duration of the trip. It pissed me off. Big time. He told me it got on his nerves too, and it broke my heart to realize that he was going to keep letting her do it. I couldn't tell him how I felt because I was worried about what his reply would be, and I didn't want to put any extra stress on their relationship, even if I didn't think it was right. So, I gave up. I realized it would be difficult now even to have him for a friend. I never told him how much I cared about him. I sought other relationships, and seek them, but I have yet to find anybody who I can be anywhere near remotely that close to with. He's going to college in Maine now. We talk online a lot. When we're home we always make plans to see each other but never keep them. I still love him. He tells me he still loves me, and stuff has happened between him and Meg relationship wise that I thought for sure would lead to it ending. It never did. It hurts me to know that I can't change the situation, but I understand that though I have the ability to make people hurt as much as I did, and as much as I do, I do not have the RIGHT to. Nobody does, and that includes you. You say you've done it before, and you'll probably do it again, but you feeling shitty does not entitle you to mislead people and make them feel likewise. Reading what you wrote did not make me cry or feel worse (I assume that is the real "proper explaination" you mentioned, the one that would cause "more tears" but as you have already said you lied/lie, assume is all I can do). It made me feel sorry for you. It reminded me of what I was denied and of what I denied myself. Maybe my mistake was assuming that maybe you could live up to what I had with Ryan, like you initially thought maybe I compared enough to Lindsey to make you happy. The difference is that I recognize the impossibility of you being him, and though I knew you didn't have much in common with him, I was eager to accept you for who you were. You liked some things I didn't, fine. You didn't like all the things I did, whatever. You judged some of my closest friends because their lifestyle isn't one you would chose for yourself. To be honest, some of my closest friends have lifestyles I wouldn't choose for myself either, but I accept them regardless. I know that they are who they are and that though they have their negatives, so does everyone, and if we ended every relationship with every person we found has negative aspects of their character, nobody would ever be in a relationship for more than a few days. The things you said to me and about me previously were hurtful and malicious and largely untrue. I am not somebody who finds it easier to get over someone if they make a ridiculous exhibit of how much of an asshole they are or can be. I am somebody who wants to know the real reasons behind things. Now you're saying your a victim of extreme mental anguish. And I believe you: aren't we all? And I understand your anguish, I really do, but I don't see how you thought it would be better to lie and avoid what was really going on. I asked for honesty. Had I gotten it when I wanted it, things would have been very, very different. Had you told me that to begin with, I would have told you it obviously was not okay for us to be in a relationship, but I would have wanted to stay friends with you. I can't take back the way I behaved and neither can you, but I can acknowledge what I did wrong and do my best not to do the same thing again. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and over and over again and thinking that there will different results. If it's up to me, I will never let something like this happen to me again. Nobody can change you and the way you behave but yourself. You're going to do whatever the fuck you want, but what you want is obviously very different from what you need, and doing what you want without thinking about the consequences first can prove to be extremely emotionally stressful, as I have certainly discovered. Amor Vincit Omnia
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora Jesus. What is this teenage soap opera bullshit? Can't you just pass each other notes in study hall and keep your tedium to yourselves?
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora You know, if you'd like this to be private, there's always the PM function.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora You are free not to read it. (grabs popcorn and finds a perch to watch the fighting)
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora locustinferno agrees: I was perfectly happy leaving it alone after I stepped out of her BR thread. I think that constitutes fueling the fire. Just saying...
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora I missed so much while sleeping. I'll never make that mistake again.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora Were never a couple. Yes, I counted that as one of my two. Were DEFINITELY never a couple (although apparently Ecc thought they were). That was my #2. Yes, I did forget that one, so that makes three times.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora So my 5 year plan to cause the biggest shitstorm in WF history with my UA dual is.........meaningless?
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora Honesty is the best policy?! Bull-fucking-shit. No good deed goes unpunished.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora I'm waiting for the big break up of me and all the WF girls. Coming Soon!
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora I'd just like to say, as someone who has seen Ali's pictures...there is absolutely nothing wretch-worthy there. She is actually quite pretty and the glimpse of girly bits I saw was Now...I'm sorry but locustinferno...this has to be one of the most pathetic displays I've seen here for a while. Breaking up is one thing, but saying such cold, unfeeling shit and going for a woman's most painful vulnerabilities to make her not just hurt but bleed for no good reason is dispicable. You probably don't give a rat's ass, but I have to say my personal opinion of you has gone way down...dragging women into sexual relationships under false pretenses when you know damn well you are in love with someone else, is just disgusting. At least this thread will serve as a warning to any single women here to stay the fuck away from your nasty baggage. I'm not sure whether to split this or not, so I will just leave it up to Listkeeper to decide how he wants to handle it. Closing it isn't going to happen though...they are both willingly having this fight in public and in the correct forum for eviscerating each other.
Re: Candlelight vigil for Aurora actormike's catheter fetish disagrees! Oh, you meant pissing on actormike, not having him around to piss all over everything? Well, ok then.